Steady. While 'steady' is often termed as a desirable condition for any relationship, I disagree. How dull a friendship that stays within limits of 'still' and 'stationary'! I propose that ours be anything but steady; a relationship that teeters on the brink of insanity at times while then again can be as peaceful as an embrace on the calmest sunny day. I wish for agility, movement, spontaneity, creativity. For a relationship to be worthwhile, it must be anything but steady.

I don't know what to do sometimes...
She looked up, words passing by her lips: "We can't see each other any more." He stayed silent, contemplating that very statement as one that had just previously passed through his mind, and watching as the look in her eyes gradually told her true feelings. Her feelings didn't back up the words she just spoke. She loved him. His heart stilled knowing that sometime in the future, he would find himself uttering that same phrase, but with a different look in his eyes--one that said the contrary.

check out this sweet video.

There has been a lot going on in my life right now. I don't know why i am writing it here, well, i guess no one will ever see it so it is more like my personal journal than anything. I am currently in college (for those of you that don't know) and i honestly don't know what to do with my life right now. I mean, i can choose right now to be whatever i want; pilot, engineer, designer, anything! I told my mom that, and she just kinda laughed and said that what i chose to major in isn't nessecarily what i am going to do for the rest of my life, and she is right. My dad, for example, got a BA in Chemestry but now does public relations/ economic development. I think part of my fear is that i have lost the vision of what i want to be/do. I know that before, i knew and decided that i was going to be an engineer. I had that vision. That's how i got through all of my classes, but now, i can't see it. I think i just need to be reminded.

Here is the first of many photos from my times down in Mexico. This one taken in the town square in Peto, Yucatan (from the balcony of the house of prayer/missionaries apartment.
(Dec. 2004)

This is the major general Coleman Edwards, wee brother of Weston telling you that you should email weston at : Westonedwards@myldsmail.net , or abortwort@hotmail.com

Wow, its been almost a year since i have contributed to this blog. I am now on my mission in Tzucacab, Yucatan, Mexico, serving the people and teaching them the truth. Im having a blast.